...Change...

¿Do I need to change?

Necesito cambiar?, pero cambiar que...?
Acaso debo mover mi mundo y girar 350grados,

sacudir todo lo que hay en el,

cambiar las formas y colores,

introducir nuevos estilos,

cambiar el pape tapiz?

¡Neh!

"I rather stay in my crazy world, full of colours and melancholic songs "

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Pearl Jam - Given To Fly

He could’ve tuned in, tuned in
But he tuned out
A bad time, nothing could save him
Alone in a corridor, waiting, locked out
He got up outta there, ran for hundreds of miles
He made it to the ocean, had a smoke in a tree
The wind rose up, set him down on his knee

A wave came crashing like a fist to the jaw
Delivered him wings, "Hey, look at him now"
Arms wide open with the sea as his floor
Oh, power, oh

He's.. flying
Whole…
High.. wide, oh

He floated back down 'cause he wanted to share
His key to the locks on the chains he saw everywhere
But first he was stripped and then he was stabbed
By faceless men, well, fuckers
He still stands

And he still gives his love, he just gives it away
The love he receives is the love that is saved
And sometimes is seen a strange spot in the sky
A human being that was given to fly

High.. flying
Oh, oh
High.. flying
Oh, oh
He’s…flying
Oh, oh

...Hoy...

Hmm, hoy es uno de esos días donde me siento estancada, sip estancada simplemente no tengo q hacer nada, no puedo hacer nada, no quiero hacer nada.
Solo observar y esperar los resultados tan deseados, pero el escalofrío sigue dentro latente y cortándome de vez en vez el aliento, puedo sentir sus manos frías sobre las mías y su mirada profunda llena de preguntas y mi pecho se encoje, se cierra, mi respiración es mas lenta y dolorosa solo me siento bien sumida en el ensueño de lo irreal; y me hace tomar una bocanada de aire mas fuerte, preparándome para lo que viene...

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Portishead - Mysterons

Inside your pretending
Crimes have been swept aside
Somewhere where they can forget

Divine upper reaches
Still holding on
This ocean will not be grasped
All for nothing

Did you really want
Did you really want
Did you really want
Did you really want

[INSTRUMENTAL]

Refuse to surrender
Strung out until ripped apart
Who dares, dares to condemn
All for nothing

Did you really want
Did you really want
Did you really want
Did you really want

...YES! I'm alive!!!...

I can Jump
I can Breath
I can Smile
I can See
I can Scream
I can Eat
I can Kiss
I can Hug
I can Teach
I can Laugh
I can Dance
I can Drink
I won't Smoke jijiji
I can Sleep
I can Dream
I can Be Just Me!

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Feist - Mushaboom

Helping the kids out of their coats
But wait the babies haven't been born oh
Unpacking the bags and setting up
And planting lilacs and buttercups oh

But in the meantime we've got it hard
Second floor living without a yard
It may be years until the day
My dreams will match up with my pay

Old dirt road,
(mushaboom, mushaboom)
knee deep snow
(mushaboom, mushaboom)
Watching the fire as we grow
(mushaboom, mushaboom)
o-o-o-o-old

I got a man to stick it out
And make a home from a rented house oh
And we'll collect the moments one by one
I guess that's how the future's done oh

How many acres, how much light
Tucked in the woods and out of sight
Talk to the neighbours and tip my cap
On a little road barely on the map

Old dirt road,
mushaboom, mushaboom)
knee deep snow
mushaboom, mushaboom)
Watching the fire as we grow,
mushaboom, mushaboom)
o-o-o-o-old
(mushaboom, mushaboom)
Old dirt road rambling rose
(mushaboom, mushaboom)
Watching the fire as we grow
(mushaboom, mushaboom)
Well I'm Sold...

...In my hands...

Hace dos años escribí sobre necesitar; necesitar una señal q me dijese sigue con El; pero nunca apareció, solo quedo lo q llame en ese momento "solo se escucha el eco de mis palabras.. un eco vació y carente de vida" y ahora lo se ...

ese eco carente de vida, vacío, oscuro y ciego; me dejo atontada, soñolienta y desesperanzada, pero no contaba q ese vacío me pudiese enseñar tanto, q gracias a el volví, volví a ser lo q fui, alegre, un poco despreocupada y agradecida con la vida

Fue ese vacío, ese hoyo que tantas veces ame y odie al mismo tiempo el que me dejo descubrir de lo q realmente estaba hecha y de las cosas que podía, además de aquellas que no podía soportar, que no debía aceptar.

Fue esa oscuridad q me permitió aprender a amar igualmente a confiar y creer otra vez.

Hace algunos meses pregunte: ""¿cuando llegara eso que ansias tanto?, ¿Pero qué realmente quieres?" y me obligue a despertar, me obligue a silenciar el bullicio de las calles y solo observar y allí estaba, desde hace tanto... tanto q a veces asusta, pero si allí estaba y lo acabo de ver y gracias.

Gracis por estar ahora aquí…

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Tori Amos (Cover)
Enjoy The Silence

Words like violence
Break the silence
Come crashing in
Into my little world
Painful to me
Pierce right through me
Cant you understand
Oh my little girl

All I ever wanted
All I ever needed
Is here in my arms
Words are very unnecessary
They can only do harm

Vows are spoken
To be broken
Feelings are intense
Words are trivial
Pleasures remain
So does the pain
Words are meaningless
And forgettable

All I ever wanted
All I ever needed
Is here in my arms
Words are very unnecessary
They can only do harm

can only do harm...
can only do harm...


imagen by: http://fc04.deviantart.com/fs11/i/2006/225/0/1/I_will_hug_sun_by_my_hands____by_sergey1984.jpg

I can't...

I can’t believe it!
...He makes me so happy….

Bob Marley › Is This Love

I wanna love you and treat you right;
I wanna love you every day and every night:
Well be together with a roof right over our heads;
Well share the shelter of my single bed;
Well share the same room, yeah! - for jah provide the bread.
Is this love - is this love - is this love -
Is this love that Im feelin?
Is this love - is this love - is this love -
Is this love that Im feelin?
I wanna know - wanna know - wanna know now!
I got to know - got to know - got to know now!

I-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i - Im willing and able,
So I throw my cards on your table!
I wanna love you - I wanna love and treat - love and treat you right;
I wanna love you every day and every night:
Well be together, yeah! - with a roof right over our heads;
Well share the shelter, yeah, oh now! - of my single bed;
Well share the same room, yeah! - for jah provide the bread.

Is this love - is this love - is this love -
Is this love that Im feelin?
Is this love - is this love - is this love -
Is this love that Im feelin?
Wo-o-o-oah! oh yes, I know; yes, I know - yes, I know now!
Yes, I know; yes, I know - yes, I know now!

I-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i - Im willing and able,
So I throw my cards on your table!
See: I wanna love ya, I wanna love and treat ya -
Love and treat ya right.
I wanna love you every day and every night:
Well be together, with a roof right over our heads!
Well share the shelter of my single bed;
Well share the same room, yeah! jah provide the bread.
Well share the shelter of my single bed - /fadeout/

...An unfinished symphony...

An unfinished symphony is my life,

same dreams same friends same boys,

same everything and its good sometimes,

but not today,

cause I’m alone, and I don't want to be with anybody , that's the worst part...

and yes I can say "I’m happy"

lots of good things happens just recently, yes good, good things.
So, I just have to enjoy,

create more dreams,

have more fun,

and share my life...

"feel the vibe and dance with our lives"

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Oasis
Keep The Dream Alive

Four Seasons.. seconds flick and flash... I'm alone
A lonely scream provides the scene
It's no home
Every night I hear you scream,
But you don't say what you mean
This was my dream, but now my dream has flown

I'm at the crossroads waiting for a sign
My life is standing still, but I'm still alive
Every night I think I know
In the morning where did he go
The answers disappear when I open my eyes

I'm no stranger to this place
Where real life and dreams collide
And even though I fall from grace
I will keep the dream alive


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...Un paso a la Vez...

Este año fue más y menos de lo que esperaba,

cosas planificadas no se pudieron cumplir y cosas sin planificar se tornaron realidad dando un respiro al cuerpo y renovando la esperanza, sorprendiéndome día a día con nueva sonrisas, y pidiendo disculpa por juzgar sin conocer.
Fue un año extremadamente corto pero igual de pesado, muchas cosas se pusieron a prueba, y otras solo despertaron mi alma, y a todo le doy gracias, a unas cosas con mas ánimos y otras con desagrado, pero todo forma parte de una cadena de aprendizaje ya sea un año, un mes, un día, tenemos que cerrar ciclos y por eso estoy tan agradecida de este año, me ayudo a cerrar un ciclo, y a abrirle las puertas a otro.
Hoy 31 de diciembre con una gran sonrisa en mi rostro, una copa de vino en la mano y mis ojos derramando lagrimas de dicha me despido de este viejo año.

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Dave Matthews Band
Too Much

Straight in, suck up and go,
Cool it, swallow, swallow
Breathe deep, take it all
It comes cheap
Push it through the doors
Because in between the lines
Im gonna pack more lines
So I can get in
Ooh traffic jam got more cars
Than a beach got sand
Suck it up, suck it up, suck it up,
Fill it up until no more
Im no crazy creep, Ive got it coming
To me because Im not satisfied
The hunger keeps on growing
I eat too much
I drink too much
I want too much
Too much

Ive got to get it somewhere
I mean, you never know, maybe youre dreaming
Who do you think youre watching
Who do you think you need
Play for me, play more,
Ten times in the same day
I need more, Im going
Over my borders
Im going to take more, more
From you, letter by letter

I eat too much
I drink too much
I want too much

Too much

I told, god, Im coming
To your country
Im going to eat up your cities,
Your homes, you know
Ive got a stomach full its not
A chip on my shoulder
Ive got this growl in my tummy
And Im gonna stop it today

I eat too much
I drink too much
I want too much
Too much

Suck it up...

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...Hide...

Hide:

- the pain

- the nightmares

- my insanity

- tears

.

Only Show:

- happy faces

- big smile

- and hugs...
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TORI AMOS
"Black-Dove (January)"

She was a january girl
She never let on how insane it was
In that tiny kinda scary house
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods

Black-dove
Black-dove
You're not a helicopter
You're not a cop out either
Black-dove
Black-dove
You don't need a space ship
They don't know you've already lived
On the other side of the galaxy
The other side of the galaxy
The other side of teh galaxy

She had a january world
So many storms not right somehow
How a lion becomes a mouse
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods
But I have to get to TEXAS
Said I have to get to TEXAS
And I'll give away my blue blue dress

Black-dove
Black-dove
You don't need a space ship
They don't know you've already lived
On the other side of the galaxy
The other side of the galaxy
The other side of the galaxy

But I have to get to TEXAS
Said I have to get to TEXAS
And I'll give away my blue blue dress

She has a january girl
She never let on how insane it was
In that tiny kinda scary house
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods
By the woods
Black-dove

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**Dreaming**

Hmmm me pregunto:

"¿cuando llegara eso que ansias tanto?,

debes esperar...tanto?"
¿O buscar algo nuevo...?

¿Pero qué realmente quieres?"

...Despierta...

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LIFEHOUSE LYRICS

"Days Go By"

So don't sit back and watch the days go by
Are you ever gonna live before you die
And when things fall apart
The world has come undone
Leave it all behind
Leave the loneliness alone
You wait forever blind

So come on and leave the years
When you watched the days go by
Come on and leave the fears
That you were afraid to find
Cause while you wait inside
The days go by

So all the memories fade
And the days go by
Forget the lonely yesterdays in mind
I know it's never gonna be the way you like
I know you don't wanna think about the endlessness you find
You wait forever blind

So come on and leave the years
When you watched the days go by
Come on and leave the fears
That you were afraid to find
You're waiting for your time
Waiting for your time
All these days gone wrong
Who broke your fall
What a way to learn

So come on and leave the years
When you watched the days go by
Come on and leave the fears
That you were afraid to find
Time is passing by
Time is passing by

So come on and leave the years
When you watched the days go by
Come on and leave the fears
That you were afraid to find
Cause while you wait inside
The days go by

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**....**

Those people who thought your friends... just a charade...

I’m a Freak, I’m a lunatic, I’m lonely, I’m happy , I’m cranky, I’m jealous, I’m sleepy, I’m friendly, I’m lost,

And U?

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Foo Fighters The Pretender


Keep you in the dark
You know they all pretend
Keep you in the dark
And so it all began

Send in your skeletons
Sing as their bones go marching in...again
The need you buried deep
The secrets that you keep are at the ready
Are you ready?
I'm finished making sense
Done pleading ignorance
That whole...defense

Spinning infinity, boy
The wheel is spinning me
It's never-ending, never-ending
Same old story

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?

In time our soul untold
I'm just another soul for sale... oh, well
The page is out of print
We are not permanent
We're temporary, temporary
Same old story

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?
[The Pretender lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]


I'm the voice inside your head
You refuse to hear
I'm the face that you have to face
Mirrored in your stare
I'm what's left, I'm what's right
I'm the enemy
I'm the hand that will take you down
Bring you to your knees

So who are you?
Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you?

Keep you in the dark
You know they all pretend

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?

What if I say I'm not like the others?
(Keep you in the dark)
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays
(You know they all... pretend)
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?

What if I say I'm not like the others?
(Keep you in the dark)
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays
(You know they all... pretend)
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?

So who are you?
Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you?


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**Sin descanso**

Sin descanso...

sin descanso todos los días nos levantamos, salimos a trabajar, almorzamos, seguimos trabajando cenamos vemos 5 minutos de tv ahora hay que planificar para el día siguiente, arreglar los uniformes, corregir los exámenes, leer la programación, tomas un vaso de agua, ya estas cansada, te fumas un cigarro aunque ya lo habías dejado.

y para que?, si seguimos teniendo miedo al salir, aun teniendo dos trabajos no puedes mudarte a un apto sola, la economía del país no ayuda, cada día es más peligroso salir, tener carro, tener una simple medalla de oro o un reloj llamativo, o vivir en una casa grande…
¿para que vivimos sin descanso?

¿que recompensas nos llevamos?

si al menos estuvieses tranquila en tu casa o estacionaras tu carro y todo bien, sin miedo que te roben, sin miedo de que te quiten el reproductor

¿Para que nos matamos tanto?

¡¿Para Que?!

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A PERFECT CIRCLE

"(What's So Funny 'Bout) Peace Love And Understanding"

As I walk on through this wicked world,
Searching for light in the darkness of insanity,
I ask myself, Is all hope lost?
Is there only pain, and hatred, and misery?

And each time I feel like this inside,
There's one thing I wanna know,
What's so funny 'bout peace, love, and understanding?,
What's so funny 'bout peace, love, and understanding?

And as I walked on through troubled times,
My spirit gets so downhearted sometimes,
So where are the strong?,
And who are the trusted?,
And where is the harmony?,
Sweet harmony

'Cause each time I feel it slipping away, just makes me wanna cry,
What's so funny 'bout peace, love, and understanding?,
What's so funny 'bout peace, love, and understanding?

So where are the strong?,
And who are the trusted?,
And where is the harmony?,
Sweet harmony

'Cause each time I feel it slipping away, just makes me wanna cry,
What's so funny 'bout peace, love, and understanding?,
What's so funny 'bout peace, love, and understanding?,
What's so funny 'bout peace, love, and understanding?


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...Guess How Much I Love U...

Little Nutbrown Hare,

who was going to bed, held on tigh to Big Nutbrown Hare's very long ears.

He wanted to be sure that Big Nutbrown Hare was listening.
"Guess how much I love you", he said.
"Oh, I don't think I could guess that", said Big Nutbrown Hare.

"This much", said Little Nutbrown Hare,
stretching his arms as wide as they could go.

Big Nutbrown Hare had ever longer arms.
"But I love you this much", he said.
Hmm, that is a lot, thought Little Nutbrown Hare.

"I love you as high as I can reach", said Little Nutbrown Hare.

"I love you as high as I can reach", said Big Nutbrown Hare.
That is very high, thought Little Nutbrown Hare.
I wish I had arms like that.

Then Little Nutbrown Hare had a good idea.
He tumbled upside down and reached up the tree trunk with his feet.
"I love you all the way up my toes!", he said.

"And I love you all the way up to your toes", said Big Nutbrown Hare, swinging him up over his head.

"I love you as high as I can hop!" laughed Little Nutbrown Hare.
bouncing up and down.

"But I love you as high as I can hop", smiled Big Nutbrown Hare - and he hopped so high that his ears touched the branches above.

That's good hopping, thought Little Nutbrown Hare.
I wish I could hop like that.

"I love you all the way down the lane as far as the river", cried Little Nutbrown Hare.

"I love you across the river and over the hills", said Big Nutbrown Hare.

That's very far, thought Little Nutbrown Hare.
He was almost too sleepy to think anymore.

Then he looked beyond the thornbushes, out into the big dark night.
Nothing could be farther than the sky.

"I love you right up to the moon", he said, and closed his eyes.
"Oh, that's far" said Big Nutbrown Hare
"That is very, very far"
Big Nutbrown Hare settled Little Nutbrown Hare into his bed of leaves.

He leaned over and kissed him good night.

Then he lay down close by and whispered with a smile,
"I love you right up to the moon-
and back."

Written by Sam McBratney
Illustrated by Anita Jeram

*Nunk voy a olvidar esta historia Mama" THANKS!!!

http://anav.blogspot.com/2006/10/just-story-that-makes-me-smile.html

...Ccs...

Faltaban 19 días para que se cumpliese un año desde mi ida Ccs y ahora heme aquí…
De regreso, gracias a dios no por las mismas circunstancias pero igual… el llegar a la misma hora el mismo clima la misma gente, bolsos, ruidos, café, automóviles, la luz, las nubes todo era igual nada había cambiado desde la ultima vez que estuve allí, y todo en mi se movió, volvió el dolor, los recuerdos la pena la opresión de mi corazón todo regreso y recordé porque había estado allí hace un año y la decisión que tome en ese momento. Pero estoy lejos... lejos de donde estuve la ultima vez, lejos de las circunstancias, lejos de la gente, estoy lejos de ti o al menos eso pensé y me duele que en mi regreso a Maracaibo te vuelva a ver… ya no te quiero volver a ver…
Y te vi y no en Caracas como pensé, no, te vi aquí en mi ciudad y me entere que volviste y ahora te pregunto: ¿porque me vuelves a escribir?, porque me preguntas como estoy?, porque...?, y aunque me duela después de todo este tiempo y aunque te duela y si aun te sigo queriendo pero es simple –No somos el uno para el otro-

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Coldplay
We Never Change

I want to live life, and never be cruel
I wanna live life, and be good to you

And i wanna fly
I'll never come down
And live my life
And have friends around

We never change do we no, no
We never learn do we
So i wanna live, in a wooden house
I wanna live life, and always be true
I wanna live life, and be good to you

And i wanna fly
But never come down
And live my life
And have friends around

We never change do we
We never learn do we
So i wanna live in a wooden house
And making more friends would be easy

Oh, and i don't have a soul to save
Yes and i sin every single day
We never change do we
We never learn do we

So i want to live in a wooden house
Where making more friends would be easy
I wanna live where the sun comes out

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...Party?...

Y todo se repite, las copas, el humo, las risas y las vueltas, el espiral, la diversión, criticas, tropiezos, el sonido del vidrio roto; un "fuck!" a lo lejos, el hielo, los vasos, la música, el sonido...muy alto…Muy bajo..."Hey esa canción es la merma!"... o un Por Favorrr me voy a cortar las venas pongan otra!", los autos, las vacas, el vacio un grito diciendo TEQUILAAAAAA! Todos arrugan la cara y dicen "Será… Aja pero solo uno" y después dos y tres y cuatro, adiós botella, se escucha otra voz "hey le damos con Ron!? y gritos SIII y NOOOO!
WTF, porque esto?
Será que en algún momento saldré del circulo , pero estar afuera no es tan divertido, o si? y todo es rápido el tiempo vuela y se escuchan las aves, sale el sol, se repite un adiós y " nos vemos el viernes...heyy hay charrrco!"
Otra vez...otro viernes, otro sábado? otro fin, en mi ksa, en la suya, en un lugar publico... otra vez? caras desconocidas, saludos desorientados, gritos, bailes, gente... mas gente... MAS GENTE.. y soy parte de esa gente?

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Stone Temple Pilots - Lounge Fly

Lounge Fly"

it's ok, it's ok, ok relieve me
pins in me, pins in me, in me you kill me
the lounge fly
the lounge fly
the fly you bring me
I think I'm free but the dogs they
won't release me

I can't give what I take away
and the other understands
she said she'd be my woman
she said she'd be my man
I can't live this way
please refill my soul

don't have a nickel or a dollar but
you feed me
my bottle's empty but you always
refuel me
I feel I'm sinking but you won't
let me drown me
I wanna fuck, wanna fuck
but do you need me?


image by:http://foro.arteenbarcelona.com/public_html/yabbfiles/Attachments/psichedelik-party.red-600.jpg

...Humanos...

Simplifiquemos.
Los seres humano son maravillosos, simplemente agraciados y especiales en múltiples sentidos; y lo seguiremos siendo sin importar las dediciones q tomemos, a quien ayudemos a quien lastimemos...
Somos los únicos capaces de razonar, tomar la vida en nuestras manos, crear, destruir, maltratar, amar...
y realmente hacemos todas estas cosas en algún momento aunque a veces no lo deseemos y el arrepentimiento nos arrastre a lugares oscuros y solitarios... aun con todo eso, a pesar del daño que hacemos seguimos siendo seres maravillosos y lo seguiremos siendo; así que arriba porque tenemos muchas cosas que agradecer aunque no lo parezca…




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Soundgarden › Fell On Black Days

Whatsoever Ive feared has come to life
Whatsoever Ive fought off became my life
Just when everyday seemed to greet me with a smile
Sunspots have faded
And now Im doing time
Cause I fell on black days

Whomsoever Ive cured Ive sickened now
Whomsoever Ive cradled Ive put you down
Im a search light soul they say
But I cant see it in the night
Im only faking when I get it right
Cause I fell on black days
How would I know
That this could be my fate

So what you wanted to see good has made you blind
And what you wanted to be yours has made it mine
So dont you lock up something that you wanted to see fly
Hands are for shaking
No, not tying
No, not tying

I sure dont mind a change
But I fell on black days
How would I know
That this could be my fate



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...Despertar...

Despertar

Nu c.... simplemente no lo se...

el porque de mi tristeza o de mi ansiedad,

realmente tengo lo q he deseado..

una vida tranquila, cómoda; con amigos con padres que están allí, el amor si lo tuve y ahora se presenta la oportunidad de nuevo claro con otra persona...

obtuve mi grado, tengo mi carro, un trabajo estable, opciones para otros trabajos...

entonces porque estoy asi...?

será porque he renunciado a las aventuras,

a los comportamientos locos que pude haber tenido,

a no probar cosas diferentes,

a no darme la oportunidad con personas,

a ser mas expresiva o hablar mas?!...

y todo lo que me repito es "auto control amali...contrólate"...

y hoy es uno de esos días q siento q voy a explotar y a gritar demasiado para poder escucharme otra vez,

y hacer cosas arriesgadas decir imprudencias escapar de mi mundo tranquilo...

hoy quiero despertar y sentirme viva otra vez no como un robot que hasta en vacaciones tiene una lista de cosas q hacer o lugares q visitar...

**hoy quiero despertar**

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PEARL JAM
"Go"

please don't go out on me, don't go out on me now
never acted up before, don't go on me now
i swear i never took it for granted, just thought of it now
suppose i abused you, just passing it on
go...fuck...

once fastened, servile, now you're getting sharp
moving oh so swiftly, with such disarm
i pulled the covers over him, shoulda' pulled the alarm
turned to my nemesis...a fool, not a fucking god
no...time...suck...my...

please...
don't go on me
don't go on me
don't go on me
don't go on me

please...oh...
suck...blood...touch...please, tunnel vision...tuck...time...see...
please, please, please...
don't go on me
don't go on me
don't go on me
don't go on me

please...
don't you want me
don't go on me
please...
don't go on me


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...Jump!...

Do it.

JUMP!

Porque no puedes aceptarlo?, a que le temes, y es que él te hace sentir wow cuando estas a su lado, y el siempre esta contigo en todo momento y tiene tantas cosas que ofrecerte, y te hace reír y hasta sientes cositas en el estomago cuando estas con él, y cuando te abraza te sientes protegida, con el sabes que las cosas van a estar bien, sabes que el no te va a hacer daño. Entonces porque eres tan cabeza hueca y no das un paso adelante y lo aceptas y dices si.
porque este terrible sentimiento de amor a la libertad...Bueh si se le puede llamar libertad, si sabes que todas las salidas los fines de semana te cansan, te aburren, y hasta te desesperan; que los problemas de los grupos no te afectan por lo tanto eres considerada una descorazonada que no se preocupa por la gente. y q mucho ruido, caras, humo, bebidas, te lleva a un estado de inconciencia y en eso una mano te toma y vuelves mas perdida que nunca, mas desorientada de lo que estabas, y si él te da la estabilidad que tanto deseas, la calma que solo él acepta y disfruta junto a ti...
Porque no lo aceptas. A caso The chauffeur sigue rondando en tu cabeza, y no entiendo porque si este fin estuviste en el mismo lugar que el y se que se te acelero el corazón pero luego de un rato todo volvió a la calma y no te pusiste triste o depre tampoco eufórica porque lo habías visto. Solo te asusto el hecho que el estuviese allí, y después que paso ese miedo todo siguió igual... entonces lo lamento querida amiga pero se te acabaron las excusas, no es amor hacia The chauffeur, ni a la libertad, ni los demás, es simplemente que tu te cierras al hecho de ser un poquito mas feliz, y lo siento; pero si con esta carta no reaccionas deja de quejarte tanto y de buscar cosas en otras personas que no te pueden dar...
Solo salta… inténtalo.



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Poe
"Fingertips"

Your fingertips...your fingertips

Sometimes I feel it burning
That deep and primal yearning
I feel it burn, burn, burning
I try live without it
But then I think about
Those fingertips, those fingertips, those fingertips

Chorus:
Anyone will do, anyone will do
Could be you

It's in the way they move and
They catch that simple groove and
They tell a story all their own about the human
heart alone
I try to get a grip but I find I always slip on fingertips
Those fingertips, those fingertips


Chorus

Sometimes I get so lonely
The time it passes slowly, so so so slowly
I know I'm just a fool
'Cause they're writing all the rules
Those fingertips, those fingertips, those fingertips

Chorus

Whoever, whoever you are
I got my light on
Whenever, whenever you can
I'll be there I swear
I swear...

Let it be me
Let me be your love

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...Cansada...

Cansada...
cansada de todo, cansada de todos
de ti
de mi
de ellos
de ellas
de mi ksa
de mi trabajo
de mi sueldo
de mis cosas
de mis sueños
de mi carro
de mi grado
de mi mama
de mi papa
de mi sobrino
de mi hermana
de mi familia
del cigarro
de la bebida
del café
de el tv
de las pelis
del cine
de los libros
de la rutina
de la salidas
de la comida
del gym
del clima
de mi corazón
de mi mente
de los gustos
del frió
del calor
de hablar
del mundo
de lo que soy
de lo que no soy
de lo que busco
de lo que no busco
de las cosas q tengo q hacer

...simplemente, estoy cansada...

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Soda Estereo - Cuando Pase el Temblor

Yo, caminaré entre las piedras
Hasta sentir el temblor, en mis piernas
A veces tengo temor, lo sé
A veces vergüenza
Oh oh oh

Estoy sentado en un cráter desierto
Sigo aguardando el temblor, en mi cuerpo
Nadie me vio partir, lo sé
Nadie me espera
Oh oh oh
Hay una grieta en mi corazón
Un planeta con disolución

Se que te encontraré en esas ruinas
Ya no tendremos que hablar (que hablar)
Del temblor
Te besaré en el temblor (lo sé)
Será un buen momento
Oh oh oh
Hay una grieta en mi corazón
Un planeta con disolución

Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
El temblor (despiértame)
Cuando pase el temblor
(Despiértame) cuando pase el temblor
(Despiértame) cuando pase el
temblor
Despiértame
Despiértame, cuando pase el temblor

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...No, no debí...

No, no debí...
No, no debí haber nacido en esta época, no se talvez dios se equivoco en los cálculos o que en realidad no se...
y es q no entiendo, no me entiendo porque las cosas q los demás ven tan grandes y tan importantes par mi solo son banales... sin sentido sin importancia.. me estresa lo apresurado, me fastidia , me molesta, y me gusta me encanta ese sentimiento de presión de estrés y cundo se va dios q cotidiano es todo! aja un cumpleaños Wow para todos y para mi mmm aja quiero una torta y ya no se puede q salga como todos los fines nada supremo o algo... mi grado AHHH lo único que quiero es q me den mi titulo salga a cenar con mi familia y yaaa! pa que tanta marisquera por todo dios este mundo si esta lleno de marisqueras! porque las cosas no pueden ser mas sencillas, mas simples mas naturales, sin tantas complicaciones, q si faltas a un compromiso q no se caiga el mundo por eso o simplemente si no quieres ir a un lugar q la gente respete lo que quieres...
Y si he tratado de encajar pero cada vez se me hace mas difícil, te exigen tantas cosas ósea no te las piden te las EXIGEN así un deber ser y tal y no, no quiero ser asiii NO QUIERO no me da la gana déjeme en paz y en armonía conmigo.
Relájense disfruten todos los momentos, los de ira los de alegría los de tristeza los de desaliento los de soledad los de placer los de satisfacción disfruten y dejen disfrutar tranquilos todos...
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Poe - Another World

Wanna hear it?)

What's the crime, man
Caught in space
Nothing and everything is
Always always always

What's your hurry
What's the hurry
There's no need to drive yourself so crazy
Solar reaction, ruptures the skin
And the sky above is saying
The world is caving in
Don't worry, don't worry

Chorus:
Another world
Another time
Another place
Don't you worry, my baby

See you're afraid to make that change
Just close your eyes
Then let me explain it to you, it's easy
Oh so easy,
There's no need to drive yourself so crazy

Bypass those channels of your memory
Why don't you mute those crenvulses
And those frequencies, and don't worry
No don't worry, it's just living

Chorus

Drop everything
This must be the end of the world
This might be heaven or hell
Or it may just be another world
Or it may just be another world

Chorus

Another world
Another time

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...used to be...

Uno siempre dice o al menos la mayor parte del tiempo "yo soy así y nadie me va a hacer cambiar..." y mientras mas repites "tal persona no me va hacer cambiar yo soy así y me gusta ser así…

Y la apartas y lo mas triste es que si cambias...cambiaste para alejarlo, cambiaste para moverte con personas diferentes cambiaste por un tonto trabajo.

Y un día despiertas y te das cuenta que realmente cambiaste ¿Por qué cambiaste? y te aguantas... te aguantas las lagrimas, te aguantas la rabia, te aguantas el dolor.

No hay vueltas atrás, no quieres volver atrás... y dices... "yo no cambie...mi mundo solo se movió...”

al final siempre voy a ser y seguiré siendo Amali...

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Chris Cornell - Can’t Change Me

She can do anything at all
Have anything she pleases
The power to change what she thinks is wrong
So what could she want with me?

But wait just one minute here
I can see that shes trying to read me
Suddenly I know

Shes going to change the world
But she cant change me
No she cant change me

She has the daylight at her command
She gives the night its dreams
She can uncover your darkest fear
And make you forget you feel it

But wait just one minute more
I can see that shes trying to free me
Suddenly I know

Shes going to change the world
But she cant change me

Suddenly I can see everything thats wrong with me
But what can I do?
Im the only thing I really have at all

But wait just one minute here
I can see that shes trying to need me
Suddenly I know

Shes going to change the world
But she cant change me
No she cant change me

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